The edge of all we've ever known

Sprained my ankle on Friday ugh it's damn fat and swollen now and I can't walk because it hurts too much so I have to go to school with crutches tomorrow and I'm pretty annoyed with myself for being so stupid but it's too laaaaate no point regreting anyway and now I might not be able to go for the cca trials that are taking place this week and that makes me sad so I really really hope I get better by Thursday or at least Friday sigh why am I so clumsy whyyyyyyyy :-(

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

HELLO EVERYONE TODAY WAS A WONDERFUL DAY BECAUSE LOVE WAS IN THE AIR AND THERE WERE SO MANY CUTE COUPLES AND THEY WERE SO CUTE AND I LOVE CUTE COUPLES we also had a really cool picnic with our senior class and I got Zec to buy me a helium balloon and I got to see my AC friends and their friends and I am looking through the photos from today and squealing internally over how cute my friends are and stuff yes happy vday guys yay consumerism!!!!

You've got my love to lean on, darling

So Lin first told me to go watch this video a couple of months ago because it was cute (and it really issss) and I didn't like the song that much when I first heard it but then it kept getting stuck in my head and now I kind of love it plus the video is just so freaking adorable and it makes me happy so yeah. You're welcome.

"I am A-OK."

"But there is all this time between when the cracks start to open up and when we finally fall apart." - Paper Towns, John Green

Finally completed Paper Towns after abandoning it halfway like, two months ago. I quite liked it. But I kind of found it... realistically ridiculous. Like, it was somewhat relatable but at the same time, it somehow made me feel really... normal. Partially because Margo was pretty much insane. I guess it was kinda the same with Silver Linings Playbook, like all the characters were so mad that it made me feel ridiculously sane hahahaha. It's not like I have serious issues and deserve to be placed in a mental institute or anything but I do think I tend to be a little odd sometimes. It's mainly the things that go on in my head that make me feel this way but I guess that's kind of a good thing right? Like the main difference between a seemingly normal crazy person and a crazy person in a mental asylum is that the former can actually control themselves since they actually appear normal even though they might not be... Right? So the fact that I don't appear insane means I'm not insane. Yep. I don't really know what I'm saying OKAY I'M NOT CRAZY it's just that I tend to think a little too much sometimes and so I think that makes me kind of weird but everyone's weird like I sincerely believe that every single person in this world is weird because what defines normalcy anyway? But yeah I guess knowing that other people (so what if they're fictional!!) are more screwed up than me kind of comforts me? Okay but that's kind of screwed up. Dang. Whateverrrrrr it's late nothing I'm saying makes much sense to me right now so bye

CNY CNY CNY

Sup everybaaady it's CNY woohoo but we're staying home how fun hahaha. But I do have a bunch of stuff I gotta do so I guess I'm glad I have today freeeee. Soooooo orientation ended on Friday and it was super duper fun and I really, really enjoyed myself - ESPECIALLY the mass dance/finale where we danced and sang and jumped around like crazy damn that was fun. I really like my OG + CG so I guess I'm pretty fortunate to have them!! Made new friends woohoooooo I'm sure they'll make my time in SA pretty damn great ;) plus I have Lin, Jam, Cher and Af with me which I am sooooo grateful for like seriously I don't even know what I would do without them. Lectures start after CNY (Wednesday) and I hope I can cope with everything and don't play too hard ahahaha oh man.. But yeah I'm looking forward to this week as well cause it's Friendship Week and we get to have a picnic with our senior class on Friendship Day (aka Valentine's Day) plus I plan on crashing AC sometime this week because I miss all my AC friends and I guess a small (weird) part of me is actually looking forward to the lectures too hahahaha. So yep happy CNY!!!!

OG3 ♥♥♥