Everything

Sometimes I look at other people, be it people I know or people in shows or movies or stories and I tell myself, "I will never be like that." or "I must never do that to anyone." or "How can she be so blind?!" But I realise, I may already be like that or have done that or be equally blind. It's kind of frustrating, because I don't really know if I'm really already like that but what I do know is that I don't want to be. For all I know, I could even be worse than that other person but I still wouldn't know. Because I am too blind. This is bad. This is really bad. Oh noooooooooo. 

Prom is tomorrow. Or today, since it is 3:08AM right now. This is the latest I've stayed up in a very long while and I'm not too sure if this is a good thing. I should probably head to bed reaaaally soon. Oh well. Goodnight. 

Here's a photo I found of 3-year-old Naomi. She was fat. And cute. And in a hospital. 
I don't remember why.

EAT LA EAT LA EAT YOUR CURRY

Went for Red Camp 9. It was pretty fun. The food was really good. We learnt some crazy cheers. I really love the cheers. The people were great, especially the SLs. They were insane. But nice. And they took pretty good care of us. The whole thing was super informative, like I learnt quite a lot about the courses so I guess it served its purpose, yay. Idk if I would even wanna go to NP though because it's such a pain to get there even though I don't even stay that far away like seriously everything is SO CROWDED like the buses are impossible to get on. So we shall see how everything works out. Yep.

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How is it that we're being more immature about this now than we were before, even though we're so much older?
This is ridiculous, I want to punch something. Or someone.

Franco 1x

More Dave Franco. I think I'm like reliving this phase I WATCHED THIS QUITE LONG AGO THO I just remembered about it again and yeah mouth fetish comes in here too if you've noticed he and Alfie have the same type of mouth so yes I like their mouths that is not weird AT ALL but like he's so adorable and this video is so cute and he is perfect okay watch this video he is perfect stupid Emma Roberts STUPID.

Franco 2x

O'S ARE OVER today I watched Pitch Perfect (w Af Lyss Rach Jill Claudi Sab Nut) and then I went to Vivo to meet my family for Naomi's birthday lunch and then I came home and watched White Collar and 21 Jump Street and Funny or Die videos my life is so exciting OK BUT IT IS KINDA I'M GOING TO PULAU UBIN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE TOMORROW HAHAHA fun. Yes now enjoy this wonderful video of James and Dave Franco I love them both but I love Dave more and they are so adorable especially Dave.

Acting with James Franco Episode 3: Scene Work from James Franco

Catatonictes

Why did I do that?

What the hell was I thinking?

Was I even thinking?

Am I judging people for doing things I used to do?

Am I doing things I used to judge people for doing?

What if I hadn't told him that?

What if she hadn't seen that text?

What if I hadn't forgotten to return that call?

Why did I think that would actually be a good idea?

Why did I waste my time and effort on something that ended up amounting to nothing?

Oh my god, Rebekah, you can't just ask people why they're white!

How much time have I wasted harping on something that didn't go the way I wanted it to?

How many other things could I have done if I hadn't chose to spend all my time on that?

How many tears have I wasted on unimportant things?

(Okay honestly, not that many. I'm not a much of a crier.)

Why did you say no?

Why didn't you just tell me from the start?

What happened?

How did I manage to lose so many things that were once so beautiful?

How can I get them back?

Do I really want them back?

Or do I want to move on and see what else is in store for me?

What if I had said,

"You."

And what if I hadn't said,

"Well, yeah..."

Where do I go from here?

What happens next?

Should I even care?

Jack Frost

Hi I would just like to say that Jack Frost from Rise of the Guardians is really quite attractive. But he's an animated character. BUT he's voiced by Chris Pine. So there's that. Okay LOOK AT HIM.

I suddenly love silver hair (I have a feeling this has a lot to do with Jack Frost and his hair although it's kinda whiteish) so I think I might be adding some silver to my hair too, along with the purple. But I'm not sure yet, I don't know how it'll go and I don't wanna be too ambitious so yeah.

Also, if you haven't already noticed, I'm going through a bit of a poetry/storywriting phase. Please bear with me. You could try to analyse them and shit hahahaha. But really I spent more time trying to think of words that rhyme than anything else so they're not like deep or anything. No hidden meanings, not really. Plus I wrote them late at night and my brain gets really weird late at night. 

Got my Red Camp info pack today I am really quite excited yay.

Eidolon

She ran down the path

Throwing looks over her shoulder

The sun was slowly setting

She just wished she had been bolder

She'd seen it coming earlier

There was nothing she could do

She already knew the answer

She just didn't think it was true

It haunted her for hours

Through the night and through the day

Like a bouquet of wilted flowers

She just refused to throw them away

Because they had once been beautiful

And that's all that she could see

So over time, the delusion stuck

She just saw what would never be

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha no

What does it mean when you dream about the same person over and over again?

Dreaming about the same person over and over again could just mean that you are thinking about that person a lot in real life. It is thus natural that they also appear in your dream life. Your dream is telling you that it is time to let this person know how you feel, especially if you are dreaming of him or her in a good way. Only good things can happen from you telling him or her. Even if he or she is not interested, at least you can move on from the crush. (source)

I was counting on you, internet. Now if anyone has a better answer, please, share it with me. Thanks. Bye.

Tantamount

There once lived a mermaid with pretty brown hair.

She liked a merboy but he didn't really care.

While playing along the shore, she chanced upon a tiger.

They soon became friends - he made her days brighter.

After some time, the tiger turned to stone.

And left the poor mermaid all alone.

But the mermaid continued to return to their spot.

Telling herself, the tiger had simply forgot.

She eventually gave up, accepting the fact,

That the cold-hearted tiger would never come back.

Little did she know, that the tiger had a reason.

But it wasn't their time; it wasn't their season.

Ultra Violet

Tried to dye a test streak on my hair today but the colour didn't really turn out. Bleaching it again now because apparently you can't keep bleach so I gotta use it all up. Been trying to post photos but my phone won't let me so photos will come when they come hahahaha in the meantime I should probably wash the bleach out now because it's been a while and I don't wanna kill my hair. Don't know if I'm gonna do the purple tonight or just leave it for now WE SHALL SEEEEEE. But I really can't post something without a picture so here's a picture of a dude and his purple beard (from the Manic Panic site).

Okay and I was just on tumblr and I realised this is basically what I want to do. But not so scary. I don't know why but this girl looks kind of really scary. I think it's her makeup. And maybe the weird ribbon on her head. I'm guessing she's some sort of cosplay girl person. Oh my what if I end up looking like some cosplay girl person. That'll be fun.

I also just reblogged a shitload of pretty hair photos on tumblr. Sorry (I'm not sorry).

Gifts

Gifts was one of the topics we were given for our compo during our mid-year exams this year hahahahaha I kind of screwed it up, barely scraped a pass because I didn't write an actual narrative I just wrote some vague shit about gifts and yeah I don't really remember.

Anyway, today Shi En and I went to Cluny to work on a top-secret project aka (someone)'s birthday present and I must say it was a success HAHAHA it was really quite fun and Shi En is really good at painting compared to me all I could do was the base but she did like words and pictures and shit but yes it was really quite fun and it's a meaningful gift so yes it was an overall success!!!! And I'm quite sure (someone) will love it so YAY.

I think I started off this post with the intention of it being relatively more profound than just me rambling about what I did today BUT I'M LAZY and I kind of forgot what I wanted to say so I shall now go back to watching White Collar because I love Neal Caffrey/Matt Bomer and it's such a good show so yes GOODBYE!

Hard at work

Colour swatches

Pretty colours

Woohoooooooooo

(Three Cheers for) Five Years

Kind of in love with this song. And it's not even new hahahaha. First heard it because Cody Simpson covered it but I think I love both versions about the same because it's a really great song so yeah been listening to it on repeat. (Edit: I realise lyss has lyrics from this song as her blog title WE ARE MEANT TO BE although that would kind of be incest so maybe not). Also been listening to a bunch of the Laneway bands that I hadn't heard of before. Really like Polica and Real Estate so far so yes I am quite excited for Laneway yay.

xx

(I was just telling someone how awfully out of character it is for me to use x's... Yeah it feels weird.)

Five years is a pretty long time. I think I've finally made up my mind.

It's too cooOOOOooold outside

MADE IT THROUGH HELL WEEK only mcqs left yeaaaaah so happy. But not really. Okay but I've been partyin it up.. Kinda. But not really. Basically all I did since Friday was:

- watch Perks and shop at H&M with Lyss, Bianca and Jill

- go to Kap with Shi En

- have dinner at Chin Huat (where Joanne insisted on following me so he could see my siblings because he is creepy)

- go to the new wing at Plaza Sing + try Rochor Tau Huey + more shopping at H&M w Shi En

- get ditched by the kids

- get a haircut (screwy bangs that I need to fix)

Yeah I think that's about all. Today was pretty rough tho but it's over so I'm just gonna sleep it off. Tomorrow's a new day blah blah blah I am so tired I haven't been getting enough sleep because my body clock has been waking me up at 7 every morning it's pretty sad. Okay here are some photos yay.

Shaney and the cool cake

Free Gap notebook

Shi En the model (So glam sigh)

Jared Daniel Phillip Andrew